Just some thoughts...

I've had a lot of ups and downs in my moods lately.  I don't know if the weather is adding to my sour moods, or if it's just a matter of needing to find something new to do with my extra time.  W and I are very lucky to both have good jobs and don't have a huge amount of debt.  We've decided to pay off all unnecessary debt (i.e houses and cars are necessary) and start saving for a down payment on our next house.  With that comes being really good about not spending any extra money.  I didn't realize just how much money we spent on going out to eat, me going out and getting a new outfit or two, buying new movies or books, until we stopped doing it.  We've been doing really good for 2 months of putting all extra money we can into the bank, and that included our tax return, every last penny.  We've begun to realize what we actually need and things we've just always had, but didn't truly need.  We switched cable carriers, and although we don't enjoy all the perks of Comcast anymore, we also don't pay the 3x the price that we were before either.  We've tried to drive less, make dinner at home more, stay in on weekends and put back the extra treats we don't really need.  It's crazy the amount of money you can save by doing all the little things.  But what comes with all this is boredom.  And a bored D, makes for a sad D.  W has been really busy with work and school and hasn't had time to be bored.  I can't help but feel sorry for myself and wish that this year could fly by and things could be done already.  On top of our planning to buy a new house, we've also decided it's time to start trying for a baby.  We've only been off birth control for 4 months., but I've been disappointed each month it doesn't happen for us.  I feel like I'm just stuck in a rut and I'm just not sure what to do.  I really do count my blessings and know that we are so lucky to have all that we do, and to actually have the means to save extra money each month after all our bills are paid.  We have our health and we have each other.  I am so happy to play with my dogs everyday, and know that they love me no matter what mood I am in.


So I've decided to take action and do something with myself, to keep me busy and maybe try to better myself.  So I looked up some classes and may get started learning about Interior Design.  I've always loved watching HGTV and am always thinking of ideas for my house, as well as those of my friends and family.  I think this could be a fun and educational class, that maybe could lead to something in the future for me.  But I've got to start to know if I even have the right touch for interior design.  This new idea makes me excited and gets me thinking about something in the near future, rather than putting all my focus on things that won't be here for another few months or longer.  I've also looked into a few other online courses, that could keep me busy and learn some actual stuff.  I'm nervous about it all though, I've never had a real desire to go to school after high school.  I wasn't gifted in Math or Science and History just bores me too much.  But I think finding a few subjects that do interest me, and do those classes one or two at a time, will be really good for me.

Bring On The Rain

You've probably heard that country song by JoDee Messina and Tim McGraw, called "Bring on the Rain". Ever since that song came out over 10 years ago, and I was a senior in high school, I've loved it. It's a song that's brought me to the tears I needed to shed on a bad day, or was a song to give me the extra motivation I needed, on others. I love everything about it, even to this day. A couple of months ago I was going through songs and artists that I've loved forever, trying to get an idea of just the perfect tattoo to get. This song popped up in my head and almost made me feel emotional about and I knew it was perfect for the tattoo I was getting. It says so much to me and makes me smile every time I catch a glimpse of it in the mirror. Bring on the rain means that it doesn't matter what life brings you, you can get through it. There may be some tough storms to face, but if you have the right people or attitude (which is the umbrella in the rain) you can get through any storm. "Tomorrow's another day, and I'm thirsty anyway, so bring on the rain!"