My plan didn't go the way I'd hoped. Our Jan 15th appt showed a Uterine Septum (it happens in 3% of women), which requires surgery to fix. Instead of getting the trigger shot, we were told to use protection and not get pregnant until further notice. I had an MRI on the 27th, which confirmed the septum. Now I'm playing the waiting game; Waiting for the doctor to get the results to me, so I can get the surgery scheduled and out of the way.
That hope is gone right now, and I'm feeling a lot of different things. Why couldn't my OB/GYN go through this test a year ago? Why do I have to feel like 2 years of my life has been wasted on the gamble of it all? Why did I have to tell myself that everything would be perfect by the time I was 30? I've set myself up for failure, and can't seem to move past that. I know things could change, my birthday isn't till the middle of May, but it's hard to think like that right now. I'm broken, once again.
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